First timer

Now I laugh when I remember my first sex with a trans, but that bitch actually raped me, assfucked me without my consent and against my will. Of course I was just playing consent-no consent, teasing her a little. Some would say I got burned, but to me I just learned to play with fire. A huge black south American trans, a hot freak all coked up to the rim squeezed into a bright, multicoloured minidress She overpowered me and raped me raw, no lube, while I was asking her to stop. Of course if I wanted to I could have kicked her away, but I didn't. Instead I let her pop my cherry with borderline violence until I came no hands. The first anal orgasm is like the first college sweetheart or the first line of shit, you will keep on going back to it, hoping to ride that glorious wave again. It was the gurls that were driving me nuts, or rather to say, my inability to deal with so much emotion. As every timid person, I am quite observant, take good notes of what interests me, always from a distance. In this life you better keep it quiet about what you like or you want, because if you don't, you will see it go in front of your face, and it was exactly that what was screwing with my marvels. I could not keep it for myself any longer. Don't take me wrong, I don't give a flying fart if I am seen in town with a gurl, then labelled as whatever by the usual morons. The problem was that I had to do something about it. More than I had done so far. A few overly gorgeous trans escorts carefully chosen online for my enjoyment were a good thing, but surely not good enough. The seed of trans love was already growing in my chest, but it needed fresh air, tenderness, affection and caring. Buying wild and quirky sex was a great thing, but it didn't fully satisfy me anymore. So I had two options: I could crawl back home then masturbate to death to tranny porn, or I could take care of things and go find myself a gurl for glorious sex and tender cuddles. It was the latest.
With every beginning one goes a bit clueless, but the fact of trying really makes a difference.